it's sort of amazing to work at this building. i'm lucky and thankful, despite my complains. who wouldn't love watching happy couples get married for lunch? it's so beautiful and the sound of cheers and claps make me smile when i'm back at the desk. but, full-time has been a bitch. am looking forward to carmel-by-the-sea; will be so sweet.

hope, pray that other internship comes along. busy fall quarter, great way to end college in the state. which reminds me, step 3 of eap has been submitted. eeeek.

i believe it takes a special type of person to be able to bear or even enjoy sitting behind a desk in an office for an entire day. i am not one of those people. all day i dream of play, but all i do is type, stare, daze. why yes, that did rhyme! how is it possible to work across from the asian art museum and not want to be there instead? shanghai exhibit poster screams, "come in! exhibit ends sept. 5!" sept 5, you say? let me check my calander, oh no sorry, i'm...at work. ugh! why did i want to do this for no pay? i'm sorry if i sound like a whiny bitch but this place has turned me bitter. i am thankful though because i know what i want and it's so definitely not this.

step 3 of sudy abroad application due in two weeks.

looking forward, desperately, to school starting.

disappointment is an all too familiar feeling.

i think i've fallen out of love with you. i really believe that i'm only here and only with you because i'm afraid to leave. i like stability and you are, without a doubt, my rock, but have i settled for what is safe? a relationship shouldn't be so much work but lately all it is is argument after argument. i don't look forward to seeing you anymore because i know it'll end up with one of us being unhappy with the other. if i'm so unhappy, why am i in this then? i want to fall back in love with you, though. i want this to work out so bad because i love the possibilities of a future with you. i want to and i think you want to too, so then why is it so hard? why do i feel so drained?

i truly hope studying abroad will go through. i need the time and distance from you and us. all i know is us and i don't think i like what we're starting to become- an angry, constantly bickering couple.

somethings that are done can never be undone.

We're slow dancing in a burning room

This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on







move forward- leaps and leaps of faith

Think about it