i think i've fallen out of love with you. i really believe that i'm only here and only with you because i'm afraid to leave. i like stability and you are, without a doubt, my rock, but have i settled for what is safe? a relationship shouldn't be so much work but lately all it is is argument after argument. i don't look forward to seeing you anymore because i know it'll end up with one of us being unhappy with the other. if i'm so unhappy, why am i in this then? i want to fall back in love with you, though. i want this to work out so bad because i love the possibilities of a future with you. i want to and i think you want to too, so then why is it so hard? why do i feel so drained?

i truly hope studying abroad will go through. i need the time and distance from you and us. all i know is us and i don't think i like what we're starting to become- an angry, constantly bickering couple.