classical china paper due tomorrow morning at 9. i am four sentences in and already brain dead. i guess that's what happens when you spend the entire afternoon watching a movie that you knew was bad five minutes from pressing play. his uncanny ability to dodge the earth's sporadic canyons that sucked in buildings, let alone cars, really should've raised some red flags, but i went against my better judgement and finished it anyway. now ancient china is back on my brain and i really can't deliver.
i'm anxiously waiting for time to pass so that i can at least get responses. i doubt i'll even get interviews, let alone the actual positions. i feel like a recent grad with no job prospectives, but at least i have the reassurance of another year of schooling. i realize, probably too late, that i really, really don't want to go work in the "real world". i'd like to continue living the cushioned life of a full-time student. the hours are great and the only downer is the amount of hours dedicated to work when you're back at home. i hope things will fall in place, but skepticism and cynicism are my shields against this disappointing world and the two things i can hold on to that prevent me from being a optimistic mass of continuous failure.
